the whole myra incident

dear loggers,

as some of you might know, im having some issues with myra mokhtar.. and as a tool 4 me 2 express myself i shall explain my side of the story.. of how this thng actually started.. im not letting out grudge here but i treat is as some thngs dat i thnk deemed more attention and some explanation..

it all started a month or two back.. on this one night.. myra went to genting with apeng.. well this is why im upset.. jelous.? no.. i got my own life.. but the night before they went to genting.. me, aliff and afan were hanging out in my house in selayang.. i called ah peng.. ajak lepak la.. bt then he said exactly this.. i quote.. 'mak aku bising a ak kua malam'. that night the three of us went back to aliff's place in pajam.. we brought smthng to his house and it made us sleep well.. and the next morning i saw the post on myra's wall.. so why when i invited you to lepak u say that u cant go out and shit.. but u turned out to be at genting the next day and returned home 5 in the morning.. mane hilang the 'mak aku bising' part? i dont mind if you guys wanna spend time together but was there any need to lie?

then.. a lot of other thngs that happened and smells fishy to me.. not surprising not only me realize this..

a lot of my calls answered with 'aku kat kl ngan myra'.. i really dont mind.. but why the sudden change from someone who suppose to be my childhood friend.. the ones who would call me and say.. 'kamil teman aku turun dataran mak aku suh bli makanan' or 'mil teman aku renew lesen aku'.. where has all that gone? still.. i  believe that everyone needs space to hangout with their special someone.. with no one to disturb them.. but again.. is there any need for isolation.. u're totally cutting down all your connections when they're unneeded.. i dnt know i its called laying low or what shit.. but it sure is painful to me..

plus.. im not the kinda person who would act irrationally and decide without prior thingking.. so i seek solution.. because the friendship i would like to preserve.. and in this case.. im upset that the change i see is not pretty and for that i need clarity and transparency.. im more upset of the attitude of taking this for granted and not really trying to solve it.. in fact.. it seems like you we're evading it everytime it surfaces..

as i said.. im not trying to put blames.. and i am looking for a solution so help me.. if you care about the friendship that is..

cheers :)